"I write because I don't know what I think until I read what I say."
At the moment that I read the quote, I have never felt so understood in my entire life - clearly, someone somewhere operates in a very similar manner to me, and in a way it was comforting to know that "I'm not alone" in my world of weird quirks.
Life has been throwing some pretty hell-bent curves at me lately that have been seriously testing my ability to pick myself up, dust off the dirt and keep on trucking. But here I am, standing up, a little bruised and a little beaten, but I'm here nonetheless and I don't intend to let anything defeat me.
Next to writing to get my thoughts in order, I listen to music like it's my job. All kinds of music - from Avicii, to Luke Bryan, to Five Finger Death Punch, to Taylor Swift (*cringe* I know), to My Darkest Days...the list goes on - and an eclectic list it is, I'm well aware. So in order to write so that I can know what I'm thinking after reading what I say, I combined my two favorite outlets and wrote using song lyrics from some of the songs I've been leaning on the most recently.
Enjoy, folks.
I can’t tell you where the journey will end
But I know where to start
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We’ll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we’ll wish this never ends
Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known, *I should have known*
Wish I could stay forever this young
Not afraid to close my eyes
Life’s a game made for everyone
And love is the prize
Hey brother, there’s an endless road to re-discover
Oh if the sky comes falling down, for you, there’s
nothing in the world I wouldn’t do
I’ll shut down the city lights
I’ll lie, cheat, I’ll beg and bribe
To make you well, to make you well
They tell me I’m too young to understand
They say I’m caught up in a dream
Settle down, it’ll all be clear
Don’t pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
Just know you’re not alone
Cause I’m gonna make this place your home
Give me reasons to believe
That you would do the same for me
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
I’m sorry for the demon I’ve become
You should be sorry for the angel you are not
I apologize for the cruel things that I did
But I don’t regret one single word I said
Don’t waste your time on me
You’re already the voice inside my head (I miss you)
So wake me up when it’s all over
When I’m wiser and I’m older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn’t know I was lost
…I didn’t know I was lost…
